Life

In life, its so easy to be distracted by the things that are going on around us. Yet, our walk with God is liken the narrow way; requiring immerse focus on our part to remain in the middle of the road.

Walking in this cross junction of my life, i realised how distracted i had become. I missed the mark. I derailed from the Way and was disillusionised to quest for happiness in places where the true joy and the awesome peace of God could never be found. Often, pride within me would sing praises of itself, boasting on how far it has come and how great it has been transformed into. Not realising, there're still untold amount of chapters in life, containing better glory and greater heights.

The tangible things we hold on so tightly to, becomes our unspoken form of security in life. The tragic is, these things come and go. The goal is not to seek them, but to seek the Giver. Not to love them, but to love the One. They are nothing but byproducts that comes as a result of a intense and intimate relationship with the Source of this universe.

Only when you lose something and feel the pain that comes with the strong attachments that you have, will you realise the true worth of that thing. Beyond the pain, comes the realization that many times we places great importance and priorities to things that are temporary, which fades away. Only than we discover that life still goes on without it. I fed myself with pride, which led me to no where. I was building my own kingdom, which was totally different with what Our Creator has in mind... till God broke the walls down.

Head knowledge got me no where. Instead it puffed up, and ended up choking me, grounding me to remain stagnant and unfruitful. Though i continued in works for my Lord, my heart was far. Love dims, lights were dying and i was dying-unknowingly. Till His saving grace found me.

He has woken me up from my delusions.

I've wandered so far off, i would have lost my way. And now im found, by His saving grace. Renew my mind, review my heart's desire and mould me again. I wana stay faithful to You and You alone. And thats what I wana do forever and ever. Guide me by your truth and grace. Lead me into Your courts. I rather be a door keeper in the house of God than someone else out there. I have been broken for this cause. And i trust in Your unchanging grace. You will lead me beside the still waters, to lie down in green pastures and to stand in awe of Your amazing glory. May i meet You face to face.

The silly pursuits i had, I wana change
Turning toward Your amazing grace
You reaches out to me, like a father to son
And adopted me, forgiving my filthy past
My life is changed, and forever it will be
When you stepped onboard, to dwell inside of me.
Your praises I'll sing, Your widsom i'll seek
That i may live the life, You've intented it to be.
Your mercy and grace, they endures forever
And I know with You, I don't hafta fear
I embrace the changes You've installed
So let it be known, my heart it longs for You
My lips it sings for You,
And my eyes they look to You always...
In this lifetime, and the life to come
Till i see You in glory, face to face.
Amen

convenant reminder- rainbow!

I took it picture at from my block.

It was pretty a rough day for me personally. Recieved a very humbling news the night before. My world came crushing down, yet again. Yet, God's faithful. It's been a while seen i last saw a rainbow, and one that's so breathtakingly beautiful!

His mercy never fails. His grace is sufficient. Though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i dun have to fear...

Its ok to have fallen. Its ok to fail, but don't you ever quit.

Change me, mould me and make me into the person U've always want me to be.

I believe. Yes, i believe.
Im taking small steps to change, and im making big progress in reaching my destiny.

God's call is irrevokable. Focus on what you have to. Leave the future in our Creator's hands. He'll work something out.

Im falling in love with You, all over again!

His unchanging grace found me

"Your grace found me just as I am,

empty handed but alive in Your hands..."

I've always thought that i am strong,

Until today when im left all alone.

He drew me back from destruction's path,

And lead me on to walk in His light.

The Lord gives and the Lord takes,

My heart broke and the pain remain.

The sting was unbearable, It left me in daze.

But my heart will stay, for its by God's grace.

My dreams and my desires, i left them behind. For i look onward, to the prize ahead.

Though i feel all alone, i've faith by Your word.

You're with me, ever so closely.

Your staff and rod, they comforts me.

God's unchanging grace found me, and i'll never forget.

How persistent He was, calling my name.

So God, dear God. Give me the strength, that i may stand at the end of the day.

I wana mount this summit, i wana stand on its top.

And shout Your name to all whom You saved.

I pray as i submit the future to Your hands.

Trusting You to guide my steps.

Thank you Lord,

Amen.

when God gets through with you.

The day will come when God gets through with you on earth, all of us would have to bring an account of our lives to Him.

When the day comes, what would you be presenting?

Will you be satisfied with what you've done with your life?

well, thats some food for thought.

lead me out

"I am gona be what He wants me to be,

No matter how long it'll take me to be.

I'm gona be inside His will...

Yesh im gona be glad;

when God gets through with me."

The light in the future seems dim. The stars arent shining. My world is caving in on me. My hope is gone. The vision for the future is blured before me. My heart within me faints in heaviness. The weight of this cross seems too much to bear. I feel all alone. My mind is all confused. What have i done. I messed up my destiny. I lost it all together. It's all gone. I'm afraid of the unknown and dark future ahead. I dont wana go. But surrender control of my life to You dear Lord. I tried to do it my way, and it failed terribly.

Yet i know, i shall abide in the shadow of the Most High. YOU O Lord, are my shelter in times of refuge. I know no other who can deliver me from this. You're my only hope, the only beam of light that's leading me to walk forward each day. In Your presence i wana be...always. Father, i want to have a relationship with you, from now till forevermore...

Father, help me to live in self-denial. Help me live a pure and holy life before You. Help me change to be the person U've created me to be. Mould my character. Help me live my life with integrity. I wana live my life in the fear of the Lord. I'm weak. I'm undeserving of Your grace and mercy. I don't wana take your grace for granted. Yet my flesh has such a strong hold on me. God what shld i do. I feel as if i've no control over myself. I need to die to my old man, but i don't know how. I wana live right , holy and pure before you...I don't know how to walk right. I wana live in total surrenderance to You.

Holy Spirit lead me. Help me. I'm weak. I don't know how. I've failed big time. Please, lead me out of this mess. Lead me to meet God. Change me to be like Jesus. Change me. Most imptly, CHANGE my heart and renew my mind Lord. I never wana repeat this mistake again. I don't ever walk and wander any further. Deliver me from the evil one i pray.

HEAR ME LORD. Please. There's none who can deliver me. Only You. I cry out to YOU!

lead me out i pray.