ready to be transformed...

Tomorrow is emerge!07

argh... can't wait!

I'm ready to be transformed...

forward looking

The art of forward-looking...
It's a choice, you make.

Remember Lot's wife.

its time to Emerge, above all else, for such a time as this!

Dreams

Luke 8:41-55
41 And behold, there came a man named Jairus, and he was a ruler of the synagogue. And he fell down at Jesus' feet and begged Him to come to his house,
42 for he had an only daughter about twelve years of age, and she was dying. But as He went, the multitudes thronged Him.
43 Now a woman, having a flow of blood for twelve years, who had spent all her livelihood on physicians and could not be healed by any,
44 came from behind and touched the border of His garment. And immediately her flow of blood stopped.
45 And Jesus said, "Who touched Me?" When all denied it, Peter and those with him said, "Master, the multitudes throng and press You, and You say, 'Who touched Me?' "
46 But Jesus said, "Somebody touched Me, for I perceived power going out from Me."
47 Now when the woman saw that she was not hidden, she came trembling; and falling down before Him, she declared to Him in the presence of all the people the reason she had touched Him and how she was healed immediately.
48 And He said to her, "Daughter, be of good cheer; your faith has made you well. Go in peace."
49 While He was still speaking, someone came from the ruler of the synagogue's house, saying to him, "Your daughter is dead. Do not trouble the Teacher."
50 But when Jesus heard it, He answered him, saying, "Do not be afraid; only believe, and she will be made well."
51 When He came into the house, He permitted no one to go in except Peter, James, and John, and the father and mother of the girl.
52 Now all wept and mourned for her; but He said, "Do not weep; she is not dead, but sleeping."
53 And they ridiculed Him, knowing that she was dead.
54 But He put them all outside, took her by the hand and called, saying, "Little girl, arise."
55 Then her spirit returned, and she arose immediately. And He commanded that she be given something to eat.


There will come a time where our dream seems to wane and on the verge of dying like a smouldering wick. The dreams and visions that we loved dearly, holding on close to our hearts, seems to be slipping out of our grips and we don't understand why. We search desperately for the cause, and seek frantically for a solution to solve the problem.

Finally, after trying all that we could on our own strength, we come to see the light that there's nothing that can be done right about that, apart from God. We put down our pride, humble ourselves and fall at Jesus' feet, pleading with Him and begging Him to save our dying dream- the dream that originally came from Him (A child is a gift from God).

While seeking God the pressures seems great. And the obsticals,plenty. Everything seems to be weighing down on our shoulders. And just when you feel all confused and lost on the inside, you got encouraged as you witness others being blessed while Jesus is on His way to your house. On the way to saving your own dream, others were getting blessed;having their own dreams fulfilled!

You find faith to believe that God can do it for you all the more, when you witness others recieving their miracles from God. Until the critics comes along.

Right after hearing powerful testimonies of Jesus' power to save and heal, the critics comes along to whisper deceit and discouragements into your ears. They come to ask you to stop trying, stop seeking God... because its pointless, they say.

But God is faithful. He has sent the Holy Spirit to remind us of the words of Jesus; that our dreams can come to pass...and that we are all called to rewrite the pages of tomorrow's history...

The mockers and critics around you begin to ridicule your faith...and you got to make the choice, to put all of them outside! To stop associating with them and listening to their negative, passive words that doesn't edify and stop mixing with their stinking attitudes... Do it!

That's when God holds you by your hands and say..."Dreams, arise!"

Life begin to return to your nearly lost dream, and once again you're able to live your dreams,with a thankful heart. But rememer, Jesus commanded us that we gotta feed our dreams. Feed your dreams with the right stuff today- feed it by the word of God, the fresh manna from heaven...with faih by which we ourselves recieved through the hearing of God's word!

Don't give up today,
God is mighty to save!

From the inside out...

From The Inside Out
by Hillsong United
album: United We Stand (2006)

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never endingYour glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

good news, part II

It's amazing how God is so timely. He's a rewarder to those who deligently seek Him. Really encouraged to see how God came through for me in certain areas of my life.

I thought that morning was great, till evening came and it was even better. Managed to find closure in an area where i had previously struggled with emotionally. But its finally over now. The chapter has closed and a new chapter begins now through God's grace.

Went down to riverwalk in the afternoon to take some pictures for my personal testimony. I'm simply so excited for it. A pleasant surprise, i didn't expect to get in. I did! haha. I can feel the butterflies in the stomach now, just by thinking about it. Argh.


Reaching the summit!

Imagine climbing nonstop in the quest to overcome the summit of the mountain that stand before you. During the strenuous process, you find yourself challenged not just physically but emotionally and mentally. In this uphill climb, you feel overwhelmed by the circumstances but you're determined to not stop keeping on till you've reached its top to emerge victory.

Well, life is not a bad of roses. The storms of life often come during these challenging times to further dampen the situation. The devil lies beneath you in the low valley, waiting to get its hands on you, to bind you, to control you and to enslave you like the way it once had. Just consider how many conseded to his devilish control, and gave up the dreams and desires that they once had burning strong in their soul...what's left are mere dry bones that have no sign of life in them.

Faced with the immerse pressures of life, our true character and our true self begin to surface and show. They surface so that we can deal with it, in the light! We now have to decide whether we would change or slide back in the path of destruction.

None of us have attained. And none of us are perfect...

We get discouraged from time to time, we fail and make mistakes from time to time. I guess by our own strength, non of us would ever be able to reach heaven's gate in comparision with Jesus' flawless standard. But our God's a merciful Father! He covers us with Christ's blood and set us free from any baggages that the devil has placed on us. He lessen our burdens so we can continue to mount the summit, in total obedience and submission to His sovereign will. He whispers into our ears to tell us to hang on to our dreams and keep keeping on!

What greets you on the summit when you arrived is the breath-taking scenery. You get to see what the faint-hearted can't. Your vision is enlarged and you could see beyond what you naturally would. Than the cool breeze of heaven's wind comes to refresh your weary soul. You feel closer to God than you could ever had if you had remained at the foot of the mountain. You're not just imagining how nice things would be on top, you're actually living your dream and experiencing it first hand! No wonder Moses could stay up there for 40days, just simply satisfied with the presence of God.

Arise, climb and change the pages of tomorrow's history!

Yet when we're young, though we can't do everything...we can always do something!

I'm standing on the summit of this small mountain of my life, im just happy that my life is now right with God, satisfied with His presence..excited at how my life would turn out now that I'm walking with Christ.

Life can be an adventure with Chirst!
Looking forward to another climb with God!

good news!

9am in the morning, yet while i was busy sleeping my handphone rung. under normal circumstances i would have ignored it or silent it, its my e learning week (AKA sleeping week).

When i picked up i was pleasantly surprised. haha! shocked was the word to describe it, speechless...

Im in for personal testimony finals!

arghhh! Simply so excited.

Shut the devil's door!

"Imagine yourself in a neighbourhood deluged with violence and crime. Not a day passes without some chilling news of murder, rape or abduction. Your home is being stalked by dangerous assilant who lurks somewhere in the dark awaiting the moment when he can slip in and take you by surprise. He longs to take you and your loved ones hostage, plunder and destroy your possesions, and maim those you love. Perhaps he'll even kill. You cannot change his mind by beggin, pleading or crying. He is a sworn enemy and determined to destroy you.

In the light of all these, would you forget to lock your front door? Of course not!

Let's take it further. Would you dream of retiring at night with your front door not only unlocked but left wide open? Absolutely not! The absurdity of it is almost offensive, yet countless people do this very thing. But it is not the door to a home that is left open-it is the door to their souls.

...these unaware and unprepared believers from all walks of life, income and common. They are both overseas and stateside. They are educated and ignorant. But they all have one thing in common: They are victims of a wise and cunning adversary who placed them under his controlling curse. How? They left open the devil's door!

...In the realm of oversight and ignorance, even believers fall prey."

portions taken from The Devil's Door by John Bevere.



A complacent guard leaves the gates of his camp wide open while he goes to bed, thinking to himself nothing will happen. But guess what the enemy is out there, waiting in the dark for an opportunity to put his flaws on you, tearing you into pieces.

Close the devil's door in your heart, today!

You're Lord.

You came picked me up one day,
as i laid by the side of the road,
broken by sin, stained with guilt and shame.

You set me on my foot,
and taught me how to stand.
filled me with Your love,
surrounded me with Your grace.

My heart was set abaze for You,
as i set my heart to follow You.
The walk was great,
the journey was awesome.
Till the furnace of affliction came.

I cracked under pressure,
took the cross for granted,
and compromised to hear what the devil wana say.

I fell, hard.
Like mighty Samson who fell,
and lost his strength.
I lost my strength to resist,
when i accepted the devil's enticements.

Once again I was entangled in the yoke of bondage,
as the carnal man in me took control.
he begun feeding his lust,
in his fleshy pursuit.

I was lost and overtaken by sin,
I was weak and powerless before the oppressor,
In a life of pretentious and darkness i lived
till one day WHEN you came to rescue me.

"Lot chose for himself, what about you?" You asked,
as You urged me to return.
With all the strength that was left, i did.
Leaving my sinful state.

With a heart of repentance i turned,
to come back to You on this resoration path.

From sleepless nights,
from horrible flashbacks,
You restored my soul
as You watched me refused to hear the deceit,
from the father of lies.

There were some close moments,
where i was unwise.
And im sorry.
For i must have hurt others whom You loved dearly.

The flesh was roaring to pursue vanity,
And i had to learn the art of backing off.
With bented knees i prayed,
to plead for help not to fall again.

I left all that i had,
achievements and fault.
And set my face to seek You,
in the wilderness.

I hunger my flesh,
allowed it to starve and die.
As i pledged my heart to draw near,
to return to my first love.

It was a struggle,
it was hard,
it was humbling,
it left a scar on me,
and i had to walk with a limp.

But it was all worth it,
because i still love You.

You saw my heart of repentance,
You saw the painful decisions i took,
You saw my faithfulness to You,
You saw the brokenness in my heart...

It had been between You and me all these while.

Your unconditional love never fail to amaze me.
Your amazing grace never fail to provide for my weakness.

Jesus, i never wana turn away again.
I'll learn to lean upon Your grace,
to walk in the fear of God,
to grow deeper in love with Your word,
to grow in hunger for Your presence.

Though mountains may stand before me,
and seas of adversaries rise all around me,
though the roaring thunder try to hinder me from hearing you,
and the storms of life come to discourage me from seeking you...

I will learn to put my trust in You;
to trust in Your heart, to bang unto your character,
when life gives me reasons not to.

May i be more like You.
So that i can meet you face to face oneday.

You're Lord over my life.

Restoration

"Only God can see our hearts; the level of repentance, the desire to change."

Out of anger in his heart came an outburst as he took it upon his own hands to defend his fellow brother. He thought he could do it by his own strength, but he was wrong. He fell into sin. He committed a murder. What started out geniune, just and right turned out wrong.

He messed up.

Condemned by his actions, he fled the country. Once a honorable man, now made a fugitive and a murderer. He must have struggled in his heart to forgive himself for what he have done. He must have went in mourning and sought desperately for God in the wilderness. He knew what he did was wrong, forbidden by God. As he beat his chest in prayer, with a heart of repentance, in godly sorrow he must have begged God for forgiveness a million times throughout the 40years stay in the wilderness.

God saw his heart, forgave his sins and waited till he was 80 years old- old and dependant on Him, humble and meek before God totally broken unto Him, before He revealed Himself to him in the burning bush. One encounter, and it changed his life.

Moses later changed and grew in the Lord to become one of the only two mentioned in the bible whom God Himself call as the "friend of God". He spoke with God face to face!

What a contrast! From a impulsive murder, to a friend of God-the mighty deliverer of the children of Israel!

God's not looking for sinless perfection, He looks at our attitude (the true expression of the real us). He looks beneath our faults to see the needs we have, to see our hearts, our motivation, our desires, our level of repetance.

When Moses decided to turn away, to fix his eyes on God in the burning bush experience, we must set our hearts and fix our eyes upon Jesus. Though we are not perfect, and can never be in our fallen nature, we can make the choice to be fully devoted, totally faithful to Him.

God looks at the heart.

Men sees the fruit that come forth outta the heart.

Salvation is not just a decision, its a process.

Some make it through and stay the course, others don't.

Never judge anyone, for no one has attained yet.

God's restoration power is mighty to save!

Merciful God

You have seen my heart,
You have heard my cry,
You are my advocate.

You saw me from the start, beginning till the end,
how i leaned upon You in this restoration path.
You were with me, as you held my hands.
You lifted me in Your lovingkindness,
and restored my soul in Your tendermercies.
my love for You propels me forward, on this pursuit to seek Your heart,
the fear of God had kept me in Your ways, as i made the change to see You face to face.
You broke my heart, my pride and sin,
and filled me with Your presence as You surronded me with Your love.

Thank You God for saving someone like me.
I stand before You, just as i am,
as someone imperfect, in need of Your grace.

As i walked with this limp in life,
I will forever be reminded,
how i need to stand in truth,
and never compromise.
how i need to depend on You,
and walk in the fear of God for the rest of my life.

You are a merciful God.
You are just when You speak,
and blameless when You judge.

God is my advocate

the Lord is my advocate.

wait on God.

for He sees our motives,
and He judges our hearts.

the land of moriah

Presenting another late-night production,

Then God said,

"Take your son, your only son, Isaac, whom you love, and go to the region of Moriah.

Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains I will tell you about."

Walking with God takes sacrfice.

In the land of Moriah-the land of visions and dreams, on the mountain of decision,
God dares to ask us for our best, invitating us to trust in His character and integrity.

To trust that whatever has been promised, will come to pass, no matter what circumstances...

What are you holding back today?

just one touch

there was a loud commotion along the streets. everyone seemed to be excited for something. large crowd of curious on-lookers flooded the place. the crowd, dust in the air, busy chatterings; made everything looked so messy. in the atmosphere was expectancy, the people wanted to see something spectacular.

she heard their words. people were touched by the prophet and were healed in the temple. blind eyes could see. the lame was walking again. the sound of celebration from the streets by those who recieved their miracle was too loud to be ignored. it caught her. she wanted to be a part of it. she wanted her own miracle.

she hurried to get her as she put on her best garment, her best look head dress and left the house. she joined the lines in the crowd in their march toward the miracle maker. she kept a low profile, ignoring eye contacts with anyone, blending into the surronding, avoiding any unwanted attention from herself. she was not allowed to walk on the streets with the rest of the people, for they called her unclean and impure. by their self-righteous acts they cast her out and rejected her from the community. she suffered great rejection and felt out of place.

refusing to give up on her miracle, she pressed on. in her pursuit she focused her thoughts on her own miracle. "if only i could touch the miracle man, i would be made whole again," she thought to herself...

her eyes brightened up as she saw him. he was finely dressed, with sharp looking features. a young man in his thirties. he was surronded by multitudes of people. sea of people followed him patiently, witnessing the miracle accounts first hand.

she had never walked so much in the past 12 years. her condition forbit her to. she had walked so far beyond her comfort zone. she began to felt tired, weak, heavy on the head. but she was a persistent women.

single-mindedly, she begun to examine her best options to get to him. she figured her best chance would be going a little futher ahead, if she would ever get the chance to touch him...or even see him ever again.

she reached alittle a head of Jesus. her heart was pounding so hard, she found it hard to breathe.
she waited in expectancy. her hopes were up. than suddenly, she saw the ruler of the temple. the man who had once chased her down the streets to get her out of the community. the man who rejected her and percieved her as unclean, unfit to be part of the rest of the people.

he would never let her get near Jesus. discouragements sunk in. impossibility seemed like a unchangeable reality. she was ready to abort her plans. flashbacks began to run through her head. how she had suffered the past twelve years. she did not want to live like she did. she wanted a change. she believed for something more to life than sitting around to wait and die.

"if im gona die, i rather die trying," she said in her heart.

She mastered all the strength she could and went down on all four on the floor. she didn't wana be seen and chased away. so she decided to crawl instead. her hands, her clothes, her face and her hair were covered in dust. someone stepped on her weak fingers,and it hurt. another kicked her from the side, and the pain was unbearable.

finally she came close enough. Jesus was passing by and she saw her chance for a miracle. She gathered evey last strength she could and push forward. she stretched out her hands and touched the hem of his garment.

she felt eletricity went through the body, heat from her hand down all the way to her body. she felt strength being renewed in her physical body. there was a transformation in her body. in that split second, she caught her healing-and she could feel her healing happening right inside of her. she felt the release she sought for.

Jesus turned, saw her and had compassion on her. He lifted her up and spoke with words so gentle and kind : "Daughter, be encouraged! Your faith has made you well."

One touch.

And it changed her life.

Peace

I needa a little peace.

Shut the mouth of the critic.
Shut the mouth of the accuser of the brethren.
Shut the wisphers of those who judge against those who belongs to You.
Let the enemies be scattered!
And let the righteous be glad...

I belong to You,
abiding in the shelter of Your wings.
You're my salvation, my refuge, my help in times of needs.

Why are you so down cast O my soul!
Fred not, and be anxious for nothing!

The Lord is my Advocate.
Vengence belongs to the Lord.
I surrender control to You.
I submit to Your will.

I will learn to wait on the Lord,
and trust in Your character.

Give me the ability to forget the pain.
I look to You.
Lead me to the Rock that is higher than I.

Your ways are not my ways.
Your thoughts are higher than mine.
I will learn to follow Your guidance,
even though i may not understand Your ways sometimes.

Jesus You're Lord.
I will be angry, and not sin.

You are Lord over me.
My spirit man is Lord over my flesh.
And i belong to You.

some pictures i drew lately...

"You hung alone, for my sin and shame..."

"For freedom, Christ has come to set us free..."

"I'm willing, thou be made whole..."

Its been a fine day.

Supposed to go out to watch ONE movie, we ended up watching TWO instead. haha. I enjoyed myself thoroughly, its been a while since i watched my last show-and i love watching movies! Sad right.

First show 28 weeks later was great. But i didn't like the ending. Well, let's say i prefer happy endings? Ya, navie...i know. It was a rather gross show, so stay away if you don't like blood and stuff like that. Simple story plot...haha.

Second show i watched was SPIDERMAN 3! FINALLY! ha. Well, didn't have company to watch all the time. Great action packed flim plot against the soul touching, dramatic romance, sorrow, anger...you name it. Love the show.

Spiderman said this words in the closing kinda stucked with me in my head:
"You become what you choose."

How true it is. To be a failue or success, all depends on what you choose in life.
What kind of a person are you can be seen by the choices you make today!

Choose wisely.

Prevention is better than cure.

Why wait till only after things have happened than you regret and cry out in self-pity as you think to yourself how nice it would be if you could turn back time.

Learn the art of "backing off"!

Knowledge is horinzontal while wisdom is from above. Wisdom is not about how much you know in life, but how much of it you actually lived your life in.

5 PITFALL for 5-fold ministry (Or believers alike):
1. Lust of the flesh (Women/Men)
2. Lust for money
3. Pride
4. Idolizing the ministry
5. Insecurity

Identify your weakness, and ask God for strength!
Get up from where you've fallen and return to your first love!

Forgiveness can be found through true repentance (which bear fruits of repentances)...with godly sorrow.

too tired. blog again next time.

It takes courage to love God.
It takes strength of heart to cling to Him.
It takes extrodinary faith to trust in His will.
It takes unconditional obedience to deserve His praise.
It takes a pure heart and clean hands to draw near to His presence.
It takes great sacrifice to keep loving Him.
It takes capacity to wait before He show you His ways.
It takes selflessness to lean upon His grace.

Sometimes its painful.

But it's gona be more painful, when you do it your way and live in regret later.

If its meant to be, its gona come back to me.
I die to it, as it put it in my Master's hand.
I'm drawing near to my Jesus, as I put it all aside.
My dreams and my desires, my ambition and goals,
I cannot let them have a better of me,
If i wana reach His goals.
I know that sometimes what i want,
May not be what You want for Me.
So I gotta learn to trust,
In you perfect will for me.

I'm letting go of my self and its desires, may it fade and die.
Cos' I'm leaning on Your grace, to walk in this new life.

the cry...

Thus saith of the Lord unto Us:

"Jeremiah 30:18-22

18 Thus says the Lord: 'Behold, I will bring back the captivity of Jacob's tents, And have mercy on his dwelling places; The city shall be built upon its own mound, And the palace shall remain according to its own plan.

19 Then out of them shall proceed thanksgiving And the voice of those who make merry; I will multiply them, and they shall not diminish; I will also glorify them, and they shall not be small. 20 Their children also shall be as before, And their congregation shall be established before Me; And I will punish all who oppress them.

21 Their nobles shall be from among them, And their governor shall come from their midst; Then I will cause him to draw near, And he shall approach Me; For who is this who pledged his heart to approach Me?' says the Lord.

22 'You shall be My people, And I will be your God.' "

Proclaimed Pastor Kong, as He stood behind the pulpit to edify the Church with the Word of God.

"I pledge my heart to draw near to You Lord! " was the cry of my heart as i wept before the awesome presence of the Lord.

Standing where i was, i was overwhelmed by God's reassuring presence. Once again, He assured me of my insecurity and saturated my heart with His love.

I wept and wept, in godly sorrow.

For i've slided away from Him, and ran away from my first love.

I am convinced that i'm a failure, without Him...

As i will continue to live in slavery, bound by sin and the yoke of bondage...

The cry:

I no longer wana sit by the sidelines. I wana be part of God's move. I wana jump into His migthly river to flow with His spirit and be a vessel completely yeilded to Him.

I'm sorry for my failures, for the mistakes, for the bad decisions i've made.

I'm sorry that i've messed up my life.

I'm sorry for having nothing else to give to you.

I offer my heart to You, and lay down my life on Your altar.

I give You my all, in gratitude.

Consume me,Oh all consuming fire,

Burn within Me a strong desire to be more like You.

Take my hands, as I'll follow You,

To do what You may, As i wana do all that You want me to.

It's time for a change!

I'm not satified.

I'm hungry and thirsty for more of You; more of Your righteousness; more of Your godly characters; more of Your power; more of You Holy Spirit.

"The sacrifices of the Lord are a broken spirit and a contrite heart."

Oh God, take my heart and break it into million pieces.

Break every pride, every egoism, every self-centered,every bad attitude, every bad motive, every bad thought, every sin, everything that has not been submitted to Your Lordship.

BREAK THEM IN JESUS' NAME.

I rather walk with a limp for the rest of my life, as i follow You...

than not having You at all in my life.

I refuse to let You GO.

Foundations

Man without vision has no incentive to advance forward in life. Their eyes are fixed on the past, while they dig on the same spot. Slowly but surely, they sink deeper into the pit of bitterness, unforgiveness and many more other influences. They longer they spend their time and effort digging the memories of yesterday, the hard they find it to climb out to face the giant of tomorrow.

As they remain in the bottom of the pit, where little or no light can shine in, crying out in self pity over what had happened and how badly they had suffered in life... they lose their ability to see and hear from God. The illumination in their minds and souls begun to darken, as they have lost hope, which is one essential ingredient for one to have faith.

BUT even though the pit may be deep, the love of God runs deeper still! There's no pit do deep, that the love of Jesus cant reach...

As God's love begun to draw us, the walls and barriers in our hearts begins to melt and our hearts eventually give way to the King of kings.

Salvation is not just a mere act of faith. It's a process,requiring time and much cultivation. What's impt is not that we quickly climb out of the pit and immediately build our house (our dreams, our desires, our visions). But taking the slow and painful steps of allowing God to deal with the open wounds. To let God fill our pit with His love, allowing His presence to heal us and mend us and to build our foundations;so that we may build higher up!

The bible teaches us to dig deep and build our foundations-so that our house can stand on stones (upon unwavering convictions) and not on sandy grounds.
WHEN the storms of life come, it would surely stand tall and stable, able to resist every challange and pressure that comes its ways.

INVEST your time today, to let God deal with the issues u have in your pit and make right all that was done in the secret...spend time building your foundations!

So that you'll have a set of strong convictions (NOT religious legalistics restrictions), Character of gold and a pure and righteous lifestyle... to face the storms of tomorrow's battle.

To conquer your mountain of the challenges of tomorrow,
You should start preparing NOW!

In Christ, You're not just a conqueror...but MORE than a conqueror!